Man Up Time

Much to the dissatisfaction to a few people in the United States this is going to be a disappointment.  My younger brother gave me some advice the other day and I am going to take him up on it.  It IS time for me to man up, and stop running to a security blanket everytime I find myself in what I deem to be a losing or uncontrollable situation.

I am going to find a place to live here in Uruguay, for now in Paysandu and learn to live by myself.  I have never lived really alone.  I have lived by myself for a period of time but only once when I didn't have someone to go to.  I can afford to live here, put money a savings and live really well here.  Not much to do here but  there are buses that go places.  I have a friend here that likes to go fishing.  He is a bit of a womanizer but we all have our quirks.  Just as long as he doesn't try and get me hooked up.  Another person, that I have a great deal of respect for, gave me the same advice as my brother, and I am going to Man Up and give it a shot.  My cousin, Buddy, offered to buy me a return ticket to the States and I will never be able to truly tell him how much I appreciate that.  The people that offered me a place to stay, Marion and Darren, Thank you very much.  Karen, thanks for telling me that I can come live in St. Louis.  I need to grow up a little bit.  It is going to be scary but I think it is going to be fun.  I will have to really bare down and practice my Spanish.  It is good enough for most conversations, especially after I tell them that I am an American and still working on my Spanish.  One thing for sure, I will definitely have more free time for fishing.  Going to be living kind of a spartan life for awhile.  I will have the basics in furnishings, just need to figure out how to get a stove and a refrigerator.  That was a word I am not used to using.  I was going to type heladera but 99% of you wouldn't know what that is.  

I am not going to ask you to pray for me because there are far more important things you can pray for.  Keep me in your thoughts and send me encouraging emails ever so often.

I don't know if it will eventually work out between Fabiana and I, but I have high hopes.  She is the love of my life.  If nothing happens that brings us back together, then like the expression goes "que sera, sera", what will be, will be or "Si Dios quiere".  

This plan didn't come to me in a dream, but it was delivered by an angel.

So it's MAN UP time.