US

Well, everyone, looks like I will be returning to the US.  It's not because I couldn't handle life here.  Life here is super.  The main reason I came to Uruguay was to be with Fabiana Ponzoni.  Yesterday she told me that she doesn't love me and doesn't see any future in us staying together.  I asked her why she no longer loves me and she doesn't know the answer to that question.  It is like asking someone, "why do you love me?", we accept because for the answer to that question.  We should be able to accept the same answer to the question, "why don't you love me?".  It's not because of anything I did or didn't do.  She wants to be alone with her children.  It is going to be a hard life for her.  She will have to find a job that pays below what people in the US consider minimum wage, selling clothing at a streetside vending area.  She will have to sell her car because she won't be able to afford the payment.  She will have to take the children out of private school and they will have to go to public school, hasn't killed anyone yet that I know of, it's just the difference in the level of education provided.  Right now she gets about 9000 pesos from her ex for "child support" that equals about $500.  With that she has to buy groceries, pay water bill, electric bill, phone bill, internet, buy firewood, buy propane for the stove.  Let me put it in a different perspective.  I am making a little over $2700 per month from Social Security, TMRS and a veteran pension, and that is stretched to the limit by the end of the month.  She will eventually have to sell the house and try and buy another one with half the money she gets from the sale of this house.  This house is about 1785 square feet and will probably sell, if she is lucky, for $80,000.  The last offer on the house was $60,000 and her lawyer told her she might now get more than that for it.  The downside to all this is that there isn't a house here selling for $30,000 that would be worth living in.  I am returning to the US with a lot of regrets, but there is absolutely nothing I can do about things.  When someone doesn't love you, you can only love them for so long without reciprocation. I am making an appeal this afternoon to see if she will accept it.  Valentina, her daughter loves me like a father, I am actually more of a father to her than her real father.  I am proposing that I stay here for her sake. I didn't stay with my daughters and I suffered for it, I stayed with my second wife for the sake of our son and he is paying for it.  Any opinions?  I am open to any suggestions?  Of course, if she doesn't go for the proposal I will be headed back to the States the first week in July or sooner.